Another day, another blog (yes don't faint lol)

I’ve been asked what I did with all my time in Texas, especially when Cameron was at work. Most knew that where my Love lives that one needs a car to get around and how did I ‘cope’ with the isolation? What did I do? How did I not go stir-crazy not having ‘anything to do’?

Here’s the thing: while some thought of it as isolation...I thought of it as peace and quiet. While some thought I had nothing to do...I thought having ‘nothing to do’ was amazing.  How did I cope without a car?  There wasn’t anything to ‘cope’ with—I was exactly where I wanted to be—with the man I love.

Time seemed to have whizzed by much faster than I liked.

So what did we do? We got to know each other even better than before. Talked about everything or nothing at all.  Shared the quiet together. Got used to each other’s habits and idiosyncrasies.

And what did I do while Cam was at work?  I read and reflected but most of all I relaxed—something I haven’t done in months—because I was finally home.  Now, don’t get me wrong—I love Canada. She has been good to me and I’m so proud to be called Canadian but the pull of Cameron’s place now calls to me. Whispers, ‘Welcome, we’re glad you’re here and I hope you’re here to stay.’ I have found a peace there  that I never knew I was looking for and I know it’s in large part because of a very loving man. 

One of the things I reflected on at length while I was in Texas is how fortunate and blessed I’ve been to find my soul mate and heart in my best friend. He loves me for exactly who I am, baggage and all. Not only does he know me but he ‘gets’ me. And when I surprise him with something new about myself, he is very quick to adapt and adjust.

Those that know me, know I do love to travel. But do you know what the best part of travelling is to me? Coming home to Toronto.  I love seeing my city as we land at Pearson, knowing that I’m back in familiar ground. I’ve always felt that way until the last couple of times when I had to leave my Love.

I don’t want to say my heart breaks every time I have to leave him but oh my gosh, does it hurt. I was only with him about two weeks the last time and I couldn’t stand leaving him. Now, after being with him for over two months, it’s going to be excruciating. I hate even thinking about leaving him in a few short days.

And yet, I know it’s not going to be for long. We’ve made plans, talked at length about our future and while we’ll have several obstacles to overcome, the one thing we both want is a future together. And yes for us, that foreseeable future will be in Texas.

As I mentioned in my previous blog, I’ll be back with him in November for a couple of weeks, attending a readers conference we planned  for months ago. For a very brief moment I thought about just staying on but my conscious wouldn’t allow it—even though I know that so many do it and have no problems. We want to do everything legal and above board.

Unfortunately ‘legal and above board’ costs money. Visas, lawyer fees, medical fees, various document fees and so on and so forth.  So in the meantime, I’m glad I’m Canadian, where residents can visit the US for six months, which I’ll be doing come mid-spring of next year.  *An aside to my family: Yes, Cameron will be coming to visit and meet you all so you can see exactly how wonderful he is to me and for me :) *

So yes, I’m going to miss my honey but I know we’ll be back together soon. Meantime we’ll burn up those long distance lines as well as text and hopefully he can get a cheap webcam so we can Skype as well (very unsubtle hint lol!). Cameron thinks that you all will get bored with how much I talk about him on this blog but people that know me, know how important this man is to me.

However, the next time I blog (which at this rate will be in October lol() I thought about writing a continuing story that is exclusive to this blog—just to get my very neglected writing back in gear. Would you all read it though?

‘til next time,

Jacs